Experiences Matters

Life's experiences, everyone have it, some are nice, some are not, however, all of that has passed, and do you ever wish you had forgotten them? The mystical thing about the memory is that, the more we try to forget, the least it'll be forgotten. Likewise, the things we wish to remember the most, are those we'll forget the soonest. However, some of these memories will stay inside you for eternity, so, which moments in your life have I learnt the most from? 

However, I am not going to talk about that experience, I would love to talk about that, but no. The experience I am talking about it working experience, well, when we apply for a job, it require job experience, well, in reality, it never mention which experience it is looking for, but most people experience in this job column would naturally mean bad experience. Well, either it's good nor bad, it wouldn't matter for them, I wouldn't worry much if the experience were good, but most of the times, the experiences are bad, if it's not, we wouldn't be going to go through application of a new job if the experience is good. 

Well, the 'best' experience I had with working in engineering field would be when I am at site, seriously, you'll be the most educated person there, the officials would be away, and the workers are stupid, when you're from an university, they'll respect you like they respect a king, however, in Malaysia, the way they respect the king is horrible, sometimes we do wonder, we have a king? Engineering field is simple, follow the plan, and everything would go smoothly. We don't need to have experiences, but when things start to fail, such as when concrete start to crack, we're in trouble. The only experience we would learn from there would be, lying, we need to tell great lies in order to know what is happened, especially when we have absolutely no idea what is going on. One thing we are not, is we are not idiots. 

Now, working in a retail shop does not actually earn you any good experience, you get scolded, and with such low pay, it's not worth it at all. I know that, because before this, all my holidays will be filed with this, and it is absolutely horrible to be doing this. You would think that being the boss' son would make you privileged, but that is all crap, you would be treated worse than others, because you will need to set high standard for all other workers. Your working time would be longer but your pay will be less. I wouldn't call that good experience, but in the end, you realized that you'll be against your family if complain too much. So, this is my way complaining. 

Connecting Back The Dots

Have you ever seen the Steve Jobs speech on Stanford University graduation day? Well, he told connecting back the dots, look backward in order to look forward? I am just wondering how many people still uses the skill you acquire during elementary school?

Oh yeah, this skills is useful for a lot of people, that is writing a composition, in truth, all my blog post is ultimate crappy because I never follow what I've learn back then. Well, they said to make a good quality composition using any language, first there's a good introduction. Usually, I don't have this, this introduction thing just made other visitors go and never come back. Oh yeah, this is cruel world, if you are not as good as others think, they'll never come back for more. When they says, don't judge a book by it's cover? It's a lie, first impression is the most important thing you have, if you don't have it, you ain't any good. I have almost forgotten what I've learnt back then,  I just know, the top paragraph is what makes someone interested to read further. It have to be good, snappy, and if possible good. I've received one of the worst assignment ever when I was 18, and till today, I would like to write back what Mr Tin, my English tuition teacher made me do then, write a composition about writing a composition. However, to my advantage this time, he will not be here be  the judge of my composition, but  you all will.  I never  underestimate  the high standard readers demand, that's why I don't expect too much.

Then, after that the body of the composition should be compelling, with a topic sentence and the derivation after that. It's should be properly punctuated, and up till today, I still am lack of this two. I still sometimes don't know which word to use and when to use it. That's why I use a thesaurus for my personal guide. It gives a lot of word, and sometimes when a word just don't sounds right, but the meaning is almost similar to what you intend to expressed, that will help a lot. Of course, if you read sufficient enough, the words will come out by itself. Of course, do some study about the topic you're about to talk about. Just don't copy it blindfolded, be a little original, and if you suck really bad, don't worry, your friend will come as your loyal visitor. Not only that, when you suck in a language, try your best in writing what you know, in your own way, and the world's literary is not that complicated, in fact, some people will find the things you wrote about really good, soothing, and easy to read. They don't really look for a journalist standard for amusement, they are just looking for something to pass their sweet time. I know, my English does suck, but there are still readers, this prove my point, don't it?   

I know, sometimes my composition may go out of topic, and trust me, I am unable to stop from voicing what I think about, usually I was given with a composition.  I do the mind mapping thing, popularized by Dr Tony Buzan, and it a best seller, I however find this method don't really suit me in Engineering purpose, but to write a composition, it does help. However, most of the time, even after proper planning, it always go out of topic. Sentences doesn't makes sense, because whatever ideas pop out, will be written out immediately. I don't know is this a bad thing, but hopefully it isn't. What to do, old habit dies with you.

As a conclusion, I would like to use as a conclusion as the ending, because I feels that I don't have a lot of time to write this and because I think I am satisfied enough to end this. So, for bloggers who are reading this, just remember what you've learnt in your past, and use it. Treat every post like it'll be judged by your teacher which gave you night mares. if it ain't good, it ain't worth it to be published. Thank you…. I know this post suck, but I would like to hear what you have to say to make it better. Honesty is what I wish for.

Philosophy of The Day

If you are one of those house md enthusiast, like me, you'll probably have heard this phrase, you don't always get what you want, he quoted philosopher Jagger, and who is this so called philosopher Jagger? you might think, well, for once, he's a philosopher, because he put a lot of effort to come out with something that makes sense, and you know, that's true wisdom. You can always be smart, but to be wise, that's a totally different story. He's also an awesome musicial who entertained your mom and dad.

I am desperate this few days, because the person whom I really hope she doesn't disappoint me she did, and I was so devastated, down, and not myself for the last couple of days. I didn't have much friend whom I can talk my feelings out to over here, not the guys, and you know, guys, what they talk about, money, sex, and who's the most beautiful girl around. When they consult the matters of heart, they consult the playboy of the class, whom his girl friend is smoking hot, and yet, he still goes out and do hanky panky stuff to someone else, not as hot, but about 300 times as rich. What has my class become? 

Well, I guess life isn't what we want it to be, we can't get the person whom we loved the most, or the job we always dream of, the mother in law we hope for, or  the salary we hoped for. Money… it always comes into consideration first. Whatever your dream job is, if they are not paying well, even it's your dream since childhood, it'll disappear soon enough, especially when there's a wife, a son, and a mother in law… you'll never hear the phrase… "well, at least he's happy with what he's doing" Life is not that simple. You don't get away as easily. They'll probably suggest you to get a real job, and do the stuff you enjoy, in your own free time. If you enjoy fuck…. please don't get married… you won't earn anything from it, unless you're in the adult industry. 

However, as hard as life tends to get, no one ever sees the obvious, you don't really care to see what  we already had. Sometime, seeing what we don't have is an inspiration to us, it makes us work harder to archive the almost possible, that is to be somebody. However, to be a somebody, in this country, you either have to be a good friend of the sultans, or the prime minister, or the sultan. That's how the two richest men in Malaysia got their start. One, from sugar plantation, another, got a piece of land for being a farmer of the PM, and asked for an worthless piece of land which turns out not that worthless after all. If you're already contented with what you have, either you're a loser, or you've given up in life.

So, if you are disappointed with your lame life, just hold on to this principle, it does makes you feel better.

Happy Go Lucky

if anyone ever seen me, they were to said that I was a happy go lucky person, well, I was, before all this. I missed most fun thing of being happy, the person whom made me happy. I am unable to put a happy face, because I can't remember actually, how to be happy. I wish there's someone to share it with, last time, I had little dwarf to talk to, now, I don't. Well, it's wasn't meant to be anyway. Are all long distance thing suppose to end in a horrible way? 

There's someone else who I hold dearly, I don't know what's her nickname ought to be, but she was so pretty when I last met her, and when her latest photo was shot, it shocked me, she does look better with her old natural hair, it just bring the glow in her. I was so happy last time when was with her, her smell, her touch, her sweet smile, her white skin. I can't believe that she is really so interesting to be with. I am so into interesting girls. I am pretty much a hair guy, if you have great looking hair, on a great looking face, I'll not stop ogling you. 

Now, I don't know what can make me happy anymore. Not the vast friends I have, nor the tremendous time I have to type this, so, can I ever be truly be happy again? 

Planing for the Future?

Here's something not everyone wants to think about when they are still young, but I do. I'd like to think of this stuff before even I started working. How young do I want to retire. Having kids will be troublesome. Money is a big problem. The thing I wonder is this, when I retire, would I like to depend on my kids for my well being? There are a lot of things to consider these days, and foremost, if I can afford it, I'd not like them to study locally. Send them to some good colleges, if they want to follow my footsteps, I'd be glad, if they don't, I won't mind either.

The trouble is, how much should i save since I began my working carrier? How much would I like to have before I retire and live a life? Plus, how much I am going save once work starts? I would not like to live my life fully in debt to the bank. I would not like to give a dimmed future to the future generation. Tuition fee would be a big investment, it would get bigger if the quantity is doubled or triple. Then, their wedding. How can I make it all that fit to my budget?

How much I must earn and how much of that I should save? I would not like to be a miser my entire life, I would not like too to be the one responsible of screwing up big time. I would not like to live long enough to burden them, although the chinese have the concept of filial piety, but if possible, I wouldn't want to be one of them who is dependent on others to survive…

So, lets do calculation, I don't want to drive a car that's too horrible to drive, so, all in all, I'll get a toyota, and a house that is not too big, since I can design a house, that's a cost which I can avoid, just get one of my architect friend to draw a simple yet elegant design. Live near work, so that I won't need the trouble to waste fuel, if possible, part of the house should be transformed into workspace… what else? A lot of things…

Is it wrong to think about this before I even start earning money? Shouldn't I have a plan?